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Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Do You Love Me?
He said to him the third time, "…do you love Me?" —John 21:17
Yet he was awakened to the fact that at the center of his personal life he was devoted to Jesus. And then he began to see what Jesus’ patient questioning meant. There was not the slightest bit of doubt left in Peter’s mind; he could never be deceived again. And there was no need for an impassioned response; no need for immediate action or an emotional display. It was a revelation to him to realize how much he did love the Lord, and with amazement he simply said, “Lord, You know all things….” Peter began to see how very much he did love Jesus, and there was no need to say, “Look at this or that as proof of my love.” Peter was beginning to discover within himself just how much he really did love the Lord. He discovered that his eyes were so fixed on Jesus Christ that he saw no one else in heaven above or on the earth below. But he did not know it until the probing, hurting questions of the Lord were asked. The Lord’s questions always reveal the true me to myself. Read the rest here.
The answer revealed at the Lord's probing of my love for Him through this devotion was I had surrendered my womb even in the face of hyperemesis gravidarum and again after each of several losses. This was a surprise to me! I never saw my surrender as my love for Him until today.
I am thankful. When I am beating myself up for failing, I can say, "Yes, I failed, but He has shown me how I have loved Him."
My womb was such a little thing to give to the Lord, but He has used that one area of my life to accomplish so much and speaks to me through that journey time and time again. Like today, God is using that same situation to give me an example of how I have shown my love for Him.
There is room for improvement. There always will be, but today, I rest right here with "Yes, I love the Lord my God!!!"