"Certainly the Bible is not just any book, and our goal is never just to know
the information it holds. God requires us to let his Word affect our hearts; he
requires us to change our attitudes and our lifestyles so that we think and do
what the Bible tells us to. But surely we must begin by knowing what it says." Starr Meade
You say you want to change you life, do better, and grow spiritually. Pick up your Bible and read. You will only learn what God says by reading His Word. Reading what someone else says about God's Word is OK, but remember you are getting it second hand through an imperfect filter. Check what they tell you with the Source. Take the time to know your Father.