Is your church teaching you concepts like this? Are you learning how to battle for the kingdom of God in your spirit?
"Unless a Christian plainly knows his work is finished and he no longer is required by the Lord to remain, he should, by all means, resist death. If the symptoms of death have been seen already in his body before his work is done, he positively should resist it and its symptoms.
To concede-by sizing up of our environment, physical condition, and feeling-that our time has come is an error on our part; we instead need to possess definite indications from the Lord. As we live for him, so must we die for Him. Any call for departure which does not come from the Lord ought to be opposed.
To overcome death believers must alter their attitude from one of submission to one of resistance towards it. Unless we cast off our passive approach we will not be able to overthrow death but will be mocked by it instead and finally come to an untimely end. Numerous saints today misapprehend passivity for faith. They reason they have committed everything to God, so if they ought not to die, He verily shall save them from it: if they ought to die, then He doubtless shall allow them to die: let the will of God be done Such a saying sounds right, but is this faith? Not at all. It is simply lazy passivity.
When we do not know GOd's will it is fitting for us to pray: 'not my will, but thine, be done" (Luke 22:42). This does not mean we need not pray specifically, letting our requests be made known to God. We should not submit passively to death, for God instructs us to work together actively with His will. Except we definitely know God wants us to die, we must not passively permit death to oppress us. Rather we must actively cooperate with God's will to resist it. Why should we adopt such an attitude as this. The Bible treats death as our enemy." (I Cor 15:26)" -The Spiritual Man by Watchman Nee
I Corinthians 15:26 The last enemy to be destroyed is death.